You don't have to look or search for your "Enlightened Luminosity"; it is and has always been a part of you. It lays wait in the silent stillness of your inner being, gently awaiting for you to pause and open to it's ever presiding presence residing within you. You are already one with All. Just open and Be...
"Be still (let the mind be still) and know (as a direct experience) that I (your inner most essence) is God " Unknown author
There's a saying, "When life gives you lemons, make lemonade".